Another Day

Well, here i am. Just got out of class. I'm tryin' to stay focused, but am struggling right now. I have a habitual trait of wanting to make sure every single issue is dealt with before the day is over with. Realistically, that never, or close to never, actually happens. And it haunts me. It terrorizes my sense of accomplishment everytime. All day I've been thinking about my current relationship: the seriousness of it, the depth of it, the longevity of it, and the problems that accompany it. But those problems... i swear, those problems are the hardest. I want to resolve everything right now. but I know that until we sit down and spend time with each other, this isn't going to happen. But how are we going to do this when Im having problems just facing him right now? I can't even raise my face from monotony to happiness. It's a straight face all the time. No change in emotions, feelings, or thoughts. I stand idle in front of him and it's not fair to him at all... I'm still looking for a solution to change this. I guess i should just let things work themselves out. Hmmm. I don't know. I don't know about a lot of things, as far as that is concerned. I gotta get on stltoday.com and finish my job search for the week. I told myself i was gonna get out there today and actually apply at some places, but since I have my night class tonight, I might end up having to cut that idea short.. Hmm. Speaking of night class, I completely forgot about the hw. I should probably get on that now.... Well, i'll update ya'll on whether or not i actually got some work done l8er