Writer's Block

I couldn't write in here yesterday like I wanted to. I had so much on my mind but couldn't seem to put it into words. I've been thinking a lot about the next few weeks and how I hope things move along smoothly. I have a feeling that because of everything that has been going on, my focus is going to be increasingly narrowed (not saying it's necessarily a bad thing, though). Yeah, that's this is just a prediction. Last nite i did work study and it was pretty interesting. One, I was hella late getting started. Two, the second group of 8-week classes started so.... all these new night students were asking me where their classes were. And, of course, i had no idea. Three, I sold out of pretty much everything, which i thought was HELLA weird. And four, people actually just stood out in the hall and talked to me during their breaks. (THank god! 'cause this job is hella boring..) Well, at one point in time there were about 10+ people in my hallway just talkin' and "shootin' the shyt". Well, I overheard this Chinese girl and white girl talking about how people were invited to eat at a "chinese" restauarant in north county. The asian girl said "yeah, it was nice to be invited, but..." She started to whisper.... "its annoying when they say Chinamen. I hate it". She definitely got my attention then. This reminded me of this time in highschool when there was a group of girls talkin' down @ lunch about "chinamen" and "dem folks wong tong" bullshit, blah blah blah. "where are dey from? China?" I'm like, "most of these places are not run by any chinese people, u know?" "Well, whoever THEY Are!" I remember laughing on the inside sayin' that that shyt was "hella ignorant". After that they went off on me. Their responses was so asinine and ridiculous that as soon as i said that they started huffin' and puffin. The main reason for that is because most of them didn't even know what IGNORANT fucking means. Tsk. Man, it seems as some things will never change. THey made me feel like i was wrong for sayin' it. Now i know for sure that i was right i the judgement i made. I just knew that something like that would, could, and has affected other people. I just hate when i'm right and no one hears me. Hmph. Ah well. It's now 1:46 pm and i just put a down payment on a new wheel. I think it's about $200 bucks for that and then another $200 for the tire. I guess it could be worse, right? The timing for this shyt couldnt be worse, though. Movin' on... I can't believe halloween is next Monday. That Is CRAZY! I doubt I'll even dress up. I mean, where the hell am i gonna go? It's not like i can go trick-or-treating. lol. I mean, be 4 real. ANd if there ARE any parties thrown by people from my school, it's not like i'm gonna go to 'em. Hmmm.... Maybe I'll stay here and watch scary movies after i'm done w/ work study. Idk. Damn. It seems as if i'm starting to rant so i guess i'll wrap this entry up w/ a quickness. I've been re-evaluating my life, sort-o-speak. I take some things way too seriously and am just starting to concentrate on my #1 priority: school. I'm going to spend less time worrying about shyt like my car and use that time to get my shyt together. And when i say get my shyt together, i mean focusing more energy to myself, not worrying about wat everyone else is saying, or has to say about me (b/c i know that inside and out, i am a very good person), staying on track w/school, work and workstudy, and realizing that as far as relationships go, I can't plan 6 months ahead. Some of the things listed above are things that I have put way much energy into doing. I put way too much thought and way too much emphasis on.. But hey, we all make mistakes, right? All i can do is learn from mine.