Real Talk

So... yesterday was an okay day. I called Planned Parenthood and they told me that it was time for me to schedule another appointment for an exam. DAMN IT!! I hate those! UGHHHHH!! AH well. I went up there and scheduled it like a good girl.. i guess.. Well, my day went pretty smoothly. I took my first test in my Intro to Business class. I actually think i did pretty well, especially considering that mug was over 6 Chapters! 6 freakin' chapters. That is a hell of a lot of material, i think. Man.. So then I had my night class at 5:20. I love my teacher but that class is long as hell. That's real talk. I was there til 8:30. What makes it so bad is that we NEVER leave early, not even a minute early. Gaah!! Ah well. We watched a two-hour movie so it wasn't that bad. A lot of my day yesterday was spent thinking about things, putting them in perspective, and realizing that nothing will ever be the same. I thought about me and Bobby. I thought about everything we had been through with each other, from the beginning til the end. I thought about all of the good times we had together that I am always going to remember. I dont regret us ever being together. He was my first Everything, and I sincerely mean that. Everyone already knows that, though. I know that in the past few months we have put each other through a lot. I know I am partly to blame, but I still feel everything happens for a reason. That's real talk. If our paths cross again, as far as a relationship is concerned, I REALLY want to start from scratch. I mean, from SCRATCH. From the ground up. As if we had almost never been together. I want both of us to be refreshed, revamped, whatever we have to do to forget about all the bullsh*t, all the frustration before this point. Hmmm... maybe one day. Well late last night i was checking for comments on my xanga. I get one from Whit and it reads, "i didnt know that you still talk to phillip...hum interesting." Riiiiight. Man, she be killin me with that. Just come out and say wat u gotta say, mane! Dont write me a comment some-what explanatory comment, dont send me a millions texts over a subject like this. Just TELL me, please! I think if u are best friends w/ someone, u can just say it... but eh, this is her way of tryin to get her point across. Hmmm. I guess it wasnt that big 'o deal or more action would have taken place. right? Nah, probably not. As far as us "still" talking, dude'll just call every once in a while. WE'll talk on the phone for maybe 10-15 minutes. And what do we talk about? Adult Swim!!!! YEah, CARTOON FUCKING NETWORK. i mean, hey, that's enough for me to be his friend. REAL TALK. But seriously, i think she thinks im tryin' to talk to him or somethin'. Quite frankly, i want to get to know someone. And considering that he isn't even in the STL right now, we are completely stagnant. Real Talk: Considering that my friendship with her should be going past this shyt, im sure everything will come to the light soon enough. Hmmm. It is wat it is.