vrr! vrrr! Vrrr!!!! PeIcE oF ShIt

Just got off the phone. With who, u may ask? Bobby. Well, actually, he hung up on me for the 2nd time today. I really dont know wat's goin on anymore. Apparently when my friend Vickie was at the club on Saturday, he talked with her about the whole situation. AND, apparently she told him that I had slept with thomas, which I really find hard to believe. Who just gives up info like that? I mean, damn. I can't find anything good to talk about with him anymore. Same shyt, different day, so it seems. Well, i'm really through with it now. At one point in the convo he said, "hold up, u aint THAT good!". I wanted to say that I was taken aback, but i didnt give a f*ck when he said that. In my head, i kept remind myself that " I AM WORTH IT, I AM WORTH IT". However, it still hurt. I know it's really over after all this. All this bullshyt. Even though i have lied myself, i think i'm not the only one spreadin them now. Ugh. Well, i'm going to pull through. Hell, as much as we seem to talk about Thomas, there must be better. Well, speaking of the devil... I saw him on Sunday and it seems that the same shyt he was asked, Vickie was asked. Wth?! Hmm. It's all good. So today, when i was talking to Vickie, she gave me HER side of the story. In the middle of it, there goes my phone. Go fig, right? (PEICE OF SHIT!!!) anyway, seems like there's not going bak. I dont see any light at the end of the tunnel i'm crawling from now. i'm going to move on. I'm going to like who i want to like. I'm going to take things slow. Maybe I WILL take off with thomas where things left off. Maybe not. Maybe my friendship with Mr. Phloe will be worth it... considering, i helped that mug MOVE! Maybe Nick Cannon ain't bout shyt (dub knows)... at least that's wat it looks like. I probably will cut that relationship hella short HELLA soon. Hmmm. Idk. My heart just hurts, though. I'm sure his does, too. But i'm really tired of beating this dead fucking horse. FUCK! wat the hell is the point? What the hell is the point of me calling bak or texting bak when i have someone hangin up on me? What is the point of me continuing to be there when my heart isn't right now? MOVE ON, SHara! GOD!! Yeah... I dont see a friendship right now. I'm separating myself from some things. vrrr!! Vrrr!! vrrr!! (something vibrating on the bed) There goes the phone again....