Weird..... and iRoNiC

Today was.... different. I was planning to go to Allstate today before i went to the CHase... So much for those plans. i got a call from my gurl CeeCee. she had to move her stuff from the shelter she was staying in... Man, i'm starting to feel so bad for her. She's been going through this basically her whole life. To make matters worst, right b4 she got in the car, she ended up missing 20 bucks out of her wallet... And to think, the only person she lives with is her dad. Not only THAT, but she just lost her job and bc of someone's credit card fraud, she might be going to jail. Damn.... This is sad, man. The saddest part is that a parent would steal money from their child. Hmph. Well, moving on. i helped her move all of her belongings, including clothes and such to a cousin's house for the time being. i still dont know wats going to become of her, but i am very anxious and scared to find out. My mindset, when it comes to other people's problems, is that theirs are always worst than mine. Well, all of that changed today while we were in the car. while me and CeeCee were talking, i brought up the fact that she needs to concentrate on herself and do all she can, "considering her situation is a little deeper than mine." Well, she put some real talk in my head. She told me that i need to stop thinking about everything as far as wat level it's on. She said Yea, her situation isnt the best, but i have enough issues of my own that add up. It's ironic that she's going through that much right now, yet is telling me that mine is pretty bad as well... The biggest of all problems is the whole money issue. We're definitely on the same level when it comes to that. after that, we got on the conversation of family, a subject i try to stay off of. well, we started talking about my relationship with my parents and my sister. First we just talked about how my parents dont like how much i think fo myself, compared to my sister. she never questioned anything about them, unlike me. After that, the converstion got Oh So serious. The first thing that came to mind was the fact that when it comes to my relationship with my mom, compared to my sis' relationship with my mom, there's an overwhelming difference. Not only that but it's too noticeable to ignore. So noticeable, it hurts. I thought about how me and my mom can be having a conversation, but say my sister comes home and walks in the door.... My mom will completely drop the conversation we're having and start talking to my sister. wat kind of mess is that?!?!?!?! Or... here's another scenario... say i'm talking to my sister, and my mom comes home. ... my mom will interrupt the convo im having with my sis to talk to her. Let me make sure i'm not overreacting. That's not fair, right? ok. didn't think so. U know wat makes things even worse? I will get up and leave the room when this happens and my sis will cut my mom off to say, "shara... were u saying something?" And the only thing that can come out is, "Naw, no, i wasn't". My feelings are hurt after this, everytime. When i looked over to CeeCee after telling her this, she said, "i can tell that this really hurts u".. Man, she couldnt be more right. so weird that this shyt is happening now, considering i'm in college and will soon be on my own soon. Weird.....and Ironic