ME

Welp, i i read my horoscope for today, and this is what it says..... "The erratic emotions that you have been experiencing over the past couple of days should ease at this time, PEACH. You will find that you are much more able do deal with things that come your way, and that you are more flexible and easygoing overall. Regardless of the unexpected twists and turns that pop up in the road in front of you, you have your pedal to the metal. You are strong and confident in your approach to everything. Do not doubt yourself for a second."
Hmmm.... this shyt, i noticed, couldn't be more true. I was up for a little while, thinking of all the things i could possibly due from now until school starts to make money.. Obviously i wont be doing all of them, but i realized that if i put my mind to it, i could do it. When it comes to money, no one can tell me anything. Besides.... i'm taking care of me, not them. I'm making sure my hair doesn't look a mess all the time. Im making sure i have some decent clothes on my body and decent shoes on my feet. I'm putting work into my car everytime something goes wrong. Me. I'm stronger than i thought i ever was before. I can now take criticism without being ready to blow someone's head off. I can take someone trying to offend me, because it doesn't mean shyt to me. I can do it. I can stand up for myself much better than i ever could before. But enough about the things that i CAN do...
Everyday, I wake up to my mom getting highly upset, yelling, and an angry person. We have an in-home daycare in our house. Crazy, right? Well, she's been doing this longer than i've been alive. But i feel as though she's still doing it now because that's all she knows. Everyday, the kids get on her nerves. Everyday she's tired and has a short fuse. Everyday I ask her, "why doesn't she do something else?" You know what her response is? She doesn't have one. She just looks at me, dumbfounded by the question. I dont get it. I dont understand. I can almost sense she's not happy doing this anymore, but she can't seem to break away from it. To make matters worse, she is going into surgery in about a week or two. Great, huh? Man, Up until this point, i've been trying to knock some sense into her, but to no avail. I quit trying to help people who dont want it. i'll do wat i can for those who will at least take it or appreciate it. I'm not waisting my breath anymore. I'm focused. I'm doing what i can for me. I'm making this money, no matter wat. I'm still very young, u know? Only 19 years old, and taking care of myself. Almost completey, and in every aspect. C'mon! Cut some slack or somethin' for this, people. NVM. U can keep that, too. I'll be alright. Until now, I was so worried about wat my parents and family had to say about EVERYTHING, EVERY aspect of my life. But i realized that I have to live for myself. So much for being your "typical" teenager. Im very different, noticeably different from the rest...... I'm ME.