Almost...

Almost done here... school, i mean. Almost done with the homework for a couple months. Almost done with the studying, and exams, and going to eat Marlettos (EW!!!!!), and chillin' with everyone in the dorms :-\.... man, a lot of this I am, in fact, going to miss... I'm going to hate not seeing everyone in the morning, while I'm still trying to wake up. Honestly, I am. I have become so comfortable with my surroundings here, that I'm not gonna know how to act when I get back to my own home. I can walk down the hall @ night with a bra and some shorts on and not have a problem. Damn... i'm not even that comfortable @ home, unless everyone's sleep. What's up with that? I have always tended to get more comfortable with my friends than much of my family. I really can't explain it, but back to what i was saying. I'm going to miss so much here. Talkin' to matt and dee 'bout everything going on in my life... just 'cause it's so EXCITING. (no seriously, there was no sarcasm intended there). Naw, it's just that so many odd things happen to me all the time. I really don't get it.... I'm AlMoSt to the point where I can predict when something weird is gonna happen to me. It's hilarious.... I was almost ready to give in to my mom until I started thinking today... I thought about how I'm getting older and, no matter what, we're going to butt heads whether or not I live in her house. It's just convenient for both of us that we argue less when I don't live with her. I see how this works and I'm not ready to just say, "okay, mom. Whatever you say mom". That would be me not being fair to myself, you know?... I'm almost anxious to put in that application at the Adam's Mark Hotel... I swear, Dee was supposed to give me that application a week ago. I can't wait on someone else to make things happen for me. I want this bad enough. I'm going down there myself and getting and application if he can't remember to give it to me this week before we leave.... I'm almost ready to move out now... I took so much stuff home today, that the room is even starting to look bear to me! I swear, once I empty out my drawers, it's gonna make me want to cry, I know it. I won't do it, just so i don't give myself that satisfaction... "What AM I ready for?" That's what I'm starting to ask myself. I'm ready for the summer. I'm ready for a new job, that actually PAYS worth a damn. I'm ready to start working at that job that pays worth a damn. I'm ready to work my ass off at that job that I start working at that pays worth a damn. I'm ready to save as much as possible so that I will be secure when it's time to get that apartment, or car note... or whatever. I'm ready to be honest with myself and face everything I've been scared to face. I'm ready to be honest with everyone I'm really close to, and in turn, I'm being honest with myself. I'm ready to start playing video games all the time, in place of all the homework and studying and classes i've had all year. and I'm Finally ready to face being alone for a while, but at the same time, doing what I feel is right and will make me happy. Those are the things that I'M ready for..Too bad school's not out yet JUsT.. But I'm almost there...