All Gwown Up

Ever since the school year started in August, I have learned so much about relationships with others, but I learned a multitude more about myself. I learned how much I can take from being in close quarters with a person. I learned that I'm a person who believes in second chances. Everyone deserves a second chance. (unless they're a homocidal murderer or something) I have definitely learned that I need to keep a small amount of time alone for me to just figure things out. I can achieve a very high level of stress over things that won't even be as serious as I make them. I want to be free but tied down at the same time. I want to be playful yet desire to have people take me seriously. I don't know what's the right path for me to take. what career I'm supposed to have. I'm hesitating to actually get out there and date. What if I find something better, or that i think is better? Then what? Then I'll feel worse about myself than when I first let go of my first love. I guess all of this is part of getting older. I guess i'm growing up.