A day ago, Robert asked if we could still see each other, even though we just broke up. And I, personally, didn't see why not. I didn't realize that it was going to be that difficult seeing each other at first. I personally felt an uneasy awkwardness at first, but by the time I left, I felt a lot better about our situation and faith in what we have. He became a real challenge yesterday. I really wasn't in the mood to play around or anything like that. And he has to realize that even though I still want to see him, that a few things HAVE change, but it's not like they're life-altering. He has to know that yes, we still care about each other. But no, we can't be all over each other anymore. For me to gain more experience and understanding of a relationship, I have to understand how it feels to no longer have one and see what it's like to no longer get the things that comes with one. He began to get upset with me because I didn't explain to him why I didn't want him to touch me in that way, but I was so tired of having to explain myself that I just gave up and didn't say anything. now that I know that he's beginning to reach his limit, I think it's better for me to not allow so much affection at all? Idk. I'm just confused, I guess. I'm kinda glad I didn't stay the night. I think if I continue to do that on a regular basis, it MAY make things a lot more confusing. Who knows the right answer. I definitely don't.
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