Saturday, February 05, 2005

Clubbin' on Saturday for Mardi Gras

Well..... let's just say that it was a very long night. I went clubbin' @ AJ's with Vicki and everything started off cool, but eventually made its way over to frustration and anger. This is what happened. First we finally find a park around 9:50 or so. Then... Robert meets us at the door and tells the doorman to let us in. We walk in and proceed down to the lower part by the dancefloor, then to the bathroom, then to the bar. I get a smirnoff and Vickie gets a Long Island. Everything's cool, we're chillin', get to know our surroundings a little better. Then we finally go down to the dancefloor and dance. As far as me dancing, everything seemed cool at first while I danced and talked to several people about many different topics.... like school, working, houses, majors, and most of all.... Robert. After a while, I started to catch him glaring at me. I couldn't figure out why he wouldn't stop his stare. Then finally, he fingers me over to come to him and goes, "you know, this is f*cked up, this is f*cked up. You haven't really DONE anything, but this whole situation isn't right." Baffled, I ask, "what are you talking about?" He replies with a, "we'll talk about it later." For the rest of the night I felt uneasy and slowly noticed the attention that was coming me and Vicki's way. About 2:00, I was definitely ready to go because I couldn't take him out the corner of my eye anymore nor the attention me and Vicki were getting. I was frustrated. I told the guy I was dancing with that I was ready to go. Robert walks past me and the guy I was dancing with stops him and says," Is there a problem?" He pushes his hand away and keeps walking. Then, I told Vickie, "I'm ready to go. Do you care when we leave?" Drunk and incoherent, she goes, "Huh?! You wanna leave now?! I don't wanna leave!!" I'm thinking to myself and finally said out loud to her that "I really want to go! I want to leave now!", with a very frustrated and confused tone. So eventually, I grab her wrist and pull her in the direction that i'm going. We get to the steps and then she pulls away from me and starts dancing again. This happened about 5 times from the second we stepped off the dance floor. At this point in time, I'm pissed off. I've been ready to go for at least 5-10 minutes, yet I have not lost my patience with her. We finally get past the crowd and guess who I run into. Yeah. He stops me in my tracks, takes a hold of my wrist, and says, " So you're leaving?" I go, "Yeah. I'm leaving!" "Why are you leaving?" "Because I don't feel good and I'm tired." "You're lying. WHY are you leaving? Is it because of what I said?" "I said i don't feel good NOW and I'm tired. Besides, we'll talk about this later.... RiGhT?!!" I walk past him and Vicki says,"thank you for inviting us." He pulls away from her, just as he did with the one guy I was dancing with. WE finally get outside and make our way back to the dorms. Around 2:30 or so I send him a txt which said, "call me when you get off work." He called me no more than a minute later and said, "I'm coming over right now." He finally makes it between 3:00-3:30. Finally I get to know exactly what he's thinking. We sat in the lounge and discussed everything from the whole night. "I guess I just got really jealous. I mean, when I saw you guys dancin' and then all those guys came around I really didn't know what to think or how to react." Even though he was telling me how he felt, I was still upset. It wouldn't've been so bad if he would've waited to tell me some of the things he said while I was at the club until afterwards. "I didn't what you were talking about with any of those guys. But I DO trust you." I'm thinking, yes, I definitely wouldn't do anything to make him question me ever, but at the same time, we are longer together, so if I wanted to get a number or I want to talk to someone, I surely could have. Finally I add, "well, you're right, you don't know what I was talking to any of those men about. However, most of the time it was about YOU. AND... most of the time I still referred to you as my boyfriend when addressing you." So... we finally patched things up after about a good hour or so. But now I know where I stand. Feelings are still strong on both sides, however, I need to think about how I'm going to handle our current situation with each other and and the fact that we ARE no longer 2GeThEr. This is my next biggest obstacle. Not only that, but he said he's going to come over my house tomorrow for sure. Let's see how that goes.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

well I think that this is one of those things that I kinda made more out of then it really was but I wasn't wrong for what I thought right??? I mean I'm somewhat right about how I felt about your SLUTTY friend who put herself out there like that, I mean to be honest the reason why my boy didn't want to talk to her when we were in Candela that night when I tried to get him to talk to her was b/c he was like she's a WHORE and she sleeps with whom ever but I'm thinking.....man she can't be like that?? or could she?? yea I was so wrong about her, she is O.C. and you know I'm right, I still really don't feel comfortable around her since the incident eventhough I said I was sorry about making you two leave the club, her reaction to the situation made matters worse but, it's all good though. you know where I stand on her but that was then. and now you say she's not as wild as then, but after I read a blog from whit, I just started thinking the same things all over again so I just rather not associate myself with her. b/c you said that she has lost some friends b/c of her nochalant attitude and that is something I don't have to deal with. so I'm good on Her...