FoRcEs

"All we do is make up Then break up Why don’t we wake up And see When love hurtsIt won’t work Maybe we need some time alone We need to let it...... breathe" (song of the Day- Blu Cantrell:Breathe) I guess this is exactly what I was thinking, however, someone else had the words for my feelings. Sometimes i just sit @ the computer, play with my heart necklace, and look into space. I swear, I wear this thing religiously. I can't seem to take it off my neck. I'm not sure if that's telling me something or what, but..... I'm ready tomorrow to come. I need to relax. I need to take this slow... I honestly think that I'm worrying myself to death. I'm so stressed right now and it seems to only be getting worse. Thinkin' about this summer and an apartment only add to my mental and financial frustrations... Man, once i know I have a job in my hands, I won't fret so much. I swear I won't. Anywhoo, back to why I'm ready for tomorrow. I want to just get my hair done and feel good for a WHOLE MINUTE this week, you know? And this Friday? Well, I'm not completely sure, but as of right now I think that I might go with Omar (Thomas is his full 1st name) to look for car. That is, if I actually feel like doing something after I get off of work. I think Anthony is coming in town again this weekend, and this time we MIGHT actually see each other. I don't know. We'll see how things go. I've been thinking about buying some all-white Air Forces for a hot minute, and today, i thought i was actually going to do it....until, I'm about 10 minutes away fromn Northwest Plaza and my mom calls. "Yeah ma?" "Go to the store and pick me up some brown sugar". I'm thinking to myself, she can't be serious right now. Oh, but she was. I go, "Ma, I'm like 10-15 minutes away from the mall". "Oh, so u CANT get me some brown sugar? I need you to go to Aldi before it closes." I swear, if it were anyone else I would've hung up. She is SO lucky she gave birth to me... Otherwise.......I dont' even know where to go with that one! Anywho, I turn my ass right back around and get Right back on the highway. Yay. "Aldi closes at 8 o'clock on Wednesdays", she said and I got there at about 7:50. I swear, I was really going to give her a peice of my mind today. I walked up the steps all big and bad, but once i saw her in the backyard BBQ-ing, all of the anger I felt inside just kinda melted away. Ugh!! I was SO MAD at myself! It never fails! So many times I've been upset and then just let it all go when I see the person. What the hell does that mean?! I don't know. Hmmm. All that for some brown sugar. I'm still gettin' those Forces tomorrow!!!