Thursday, April 07, 2005

Sux

Well, I get a call from Omar last night. And guess where he was when he called! No, not jail. In the hospital (go figure). Did he get shot again, you ask? No, he did not. lol.(but seriously, the actual matter of being shot is not funny). Either way, the whole situation pretty much sucked, u know? Well, apparently there was a 5-car pile up. And guess whose car was the one getting hit by the rest of them. His car! The one he just bought, oh, a week ago. does that suck or does that suck? i'm gonna go with that sux. And I thought I was having a bad day.... But still, I was. I get up early yesterday to sign up for classes but my advisor isn't even at school yet. I go to all of my classes, then try to see her again afterwards... apparently she would have classes until 7pm! "Great", I'm thinking. "Now I won't be able to sign up for classes until the next day. Then, after I leave school, I head off to Allstate. Around 4:30, I get a call from Mike up @ Imo's. He only had 2 girls who were able to come in that night. He asked if I could and I said I would see what I could do. I get there around 5:20pm. There for a while. Tired as hell afterwards.... The whole time, one thing was on my mind. This note. I got this note on my car from Bobby at least a month or so ago. It said, "Just wanted to say I love you again". My mom found it a few days ago when she was using my car. At the same time that she was questioning me about the note, I'm being questioned by him about my whereabouts, who I'm out with, where I am, where I was, where I'm going. And ever since then I've been distancing myself from her and Bobby. I hate having conflict for ridiculous reasons. I just can't take all of this right now. I feel as though the pressure that I was recieving from both of them, which at one time I thought was gone for good, has apparently resurfaced at least in my mind and I can't get rid of it..... I just want people to let me be for a while, I guess...... Either way it goes, It SUX.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

it's not that I'm concerned as much about your whereabouts it's just that dang.....like you said you are distancing yourself away from me and I don't like it , I mean it might be for the better or what not but I don't think that it is fair to me, or who you are with or where you at , that well damn , you tell me one thing and then I read this and find out some more interesting stuff and then what am I suppose to think..... it hurts not only you but it hurts me too. and then this note that your mom found that I left. I mean you didn't even mention it. So now I'm like....what ?? and this comment that you made "I hate having conflict for ridiculous reasons. I just can't take all of this right now. I feel as though the pressure that I was recieving from both of them, which at one time I thought was gone for good, has apparently resurfaced at least in my mind and I can't get rid of it..... I just want people to let me be for a while" Fine I think I will let you be B/c I'm also tired of dealing with it I don't know what I'm gonna do or really what I mean, but you don't really know what you want and I see that. so........I'm not sure what I'm gonna do ........?