Exhausting Thursday

I thought I was SOO sure about myself. I thought that I could everything figured out in sucha short amount of time, but i was wrong.... And for now....well, I am frigging exhausted after today. Had more tests, quizzes, and all that jazz. I have so much on my mind right now.... I'm guessing that the amount I'm thinking about it is making it even harder for me. I hate how much I stress myself out. I'm expecting myself to find a good-paying job in one day's try. What was I thinking? I guess I'm just not used to having to look for a job..... This is bullshit. I just want to be happy and financially stable, but, I'm not even sure what will do that right now. i know that financially speaking, I feel the pressure to get this shyt rollin. I mean, the summer is fast-approaching. I need to get it together.... I need to know what I want and need. I honestly thought I was going to be THAT much closer to knowing what I wanted after "separating" myself from the relationship I was in, but I still don't know. I'm still confused... I HONESTLY thought I would be able to have this figured out in a month's time. No, definitely not. On one side, I Wanted to break away and explore. At the same time, I'm keeping myself from the latter part of that statement. I Want to go out and meet new people, but I don't. I want to take a chance. But I don't. I want to be sure about myself..... But I'm not.