Time is Winding Down...

Sitting here.... listenin to neosoul and it feels good. It's been putting me at ease in recent days.... Erykah Badu and especially Floetry. I've been battling these demons of recism and feelings of injustice. I've finally come to terms that this is something that will never go away. It's everywhere u go, no matter if you're 100 or 1,000 miles from home. I realized that all i can do is be myself and those that are for the right cause will be right there with me. I can't run from this. I have to face it head on, you know? It took a while to realize that that's all i CAN do. Better late than never, right? The time is winding down for a certain number of people to leave in a few days. (they're not staying for the whole semester, which really sux). Why does it suck so bad? Well, the person I've gotten closest to is leaving me after 9 freakin' weeks of getting to know each other. Her name is Su Mon Win. Cutest little girl u will ever meet, but still a bad ass. No joke. She's this tiny thing out of Burma, whose moving to Australia for the rest of her schooling. Wow. She's leaving so soon....... All i can do is hope we keep in touch. She's too crazy not to want to. She's one of the people going to Bangkok with me this weekend. I can't believe it.... after our spring break she'll no longer be with me. The reason I sound so suprised is because it just hit me. We've taken so many pictures of us acting ridiculously stupid. That's what u gotta do, 'cause those are the best memories. Am I right? Well, almost done with all my work for the first term. I have two days left with one paper and a presentation and I can finally party and all that good stuff. The days are slowly getting hotter.
My birthday is in April and it's the hottest month of the year. Apparently the humidity and weather gets hotter here than it would in STL during the summer. Oh man... I'm wondering if i might end up losing a lot of weight since i walk more than ride... crap. Everytime i think about home i get so excited. Why? Well, there's some people that i really miss. Miss talking to, f*ckin' with, and seeing their faces. Two in particular, my mom and dad. She and my dad, as i might have said before, are renewing their vows in the first week of June. Their actual anniversary is in April (a few days after my bday), but since I wouldn't be able to be there, they moved it til after i come back. And Ryan, well, of course i miss his crazy self. He's going to walk me down during the ceremony. There's no one else that i would rather walk me down. He's known me the longest and has no problem being brutally honest with me. An obvious person is Bobby, considering the entry i wrote not too long ago... And someone who I've thought a lot about lately is Larry. Why? Well, we didn't leave things on a good note when I left. I'm really sorry for that. Even though he had a tendency to sometimes piss me off, I really miss our conversations. Hmmm... Genevieve sent me a message the other day just seeing how i was. That's when I realized something... I haven't been really calling anyone. To everyone at home: I seriously apologize for that. I really do think of u all, but it's sometimes hard with the time difference and the cost to the US. Just know i'm thinking about u...