School Work

Today was steaming! Today was the hottest day I have experienced since I've been here in Thailand. I've never seen people sweat that much unless they're being chased by the police. Shit. Since I made it to school, things have been hectic. Everyone is trying to get their papers finished, presentations ready, and brains functioning. I'm in my Thai Ways class right now, freaking out. Why? Well, I have my Thai Language oral after this class. Have I really studied at all? Uh, no. I finally had a chance to really catch up on people's blogs, facebook pages, and all that good stuff. Whitney mentioned in hers that I didn't mention her in mine, as far as the people I miss. Well, I really do. But this is the thing.... last thing I did was make a joke on her facebook page to try to open the gateway for communication, to show that i was thinking about her. And, well, i left some comments on her blog not too many entries ago. But what about mine? None at all, which is fine. I know I apologized for how i felt and what i said to her on the phone before I left for Thailand, but it's not a one-way street. She brought up Phillip and I can't fathom why. If I remember that night right, we both agreed he was attractive. Yes, I did know she talked to him a little in highschool. But was that not highschool, no? I thought with us being in college it would be different. I could have swore it wasn't serious, but I think I apologized for that. If I didn't, then I am apologizing now. When he asked me for my number, she informed me that "he's a dog". If this was the case(which was), then why would u still try to talk to him? And what about Chrissie Web? Wasn't I ok on that? I honestly supported that... And that's from the heart. Well, the point is I won't give in on our issues we have. I've wiped my slate as clean as i could for what I've done. I really don't know what else to do, so that's why I'm tryin' not to get too attached to someone..... I'm already failing with that here. It wouldn't be right to just act like everything was cool when I left when they weren't. I would be lying to myself and everyone else. AND... well... i'm not trying to work on anything at home until I Get back home. Hmmmm... Looks like everyone is going out tonight to celebrate the end of some of our classes... especially Thai Ways. Hmmm. Not sure if i'm going to join or not..... I knew my relationships with people would stay on my mind for a while. Maybe that could help with it. Ne way, now i have to pay attention in class.........