FREAKIN OUT PT. II

Ok...It's been exactly a week since I wrote in here and here is why.... My computer is f*cked up, the Thanksgiving weekend came, and I worked (as always). Ever since I went on this website for my sister, my cpu has just been actin crazy and now it's jacked up. Windows will not start up because of some hard drive or hard drive controllers that were apparently installed. F*CK!!! U know i can't live without my cpu and now i'm freakin out. Not only can I not use windows, but I can't get on the internet, which means I can't check my email. And because windows isn't working, I can't get to MY DOCUMENTS where I saved my RESEARCH PAPER which is due... THURSDAY!!! I have to finish typing that up along with a few other papers or I'm screwed. I swear, I'm sweating bullets right now. Well, in other news.... Me and Bobby went to the movies last night. I mean, it was cool but it just feels like he's pushing my buttons for no reason. Lately i don't FEEL like being hit or poked or made fun of. I dont feel like someone getting smart with me after everything i say. Serious business: that's where my head is at right now (for obvious reasons). WHen we made it back from the movie, he stayed for maybe 1/2 hr then left. We stopped talking about 15 minutes after making it back. He got up and put his coat on. In my head i'm thinkin, "DAMN..". I know i wasnt talking, but neither was he. IDK wat is going on with us, and i'm not going to spend time on that issue right now. But what i DO know is that I need to figure out how to just break away from this sort of dependency thing i have going on. We aren't even together, but I still depend on him to be there. Man... that's not good for either of us.. well, considering i'm not on my computer, i can't spend ne more time writing and checkin email and shyt. Gotta go to class soon ne way. WHEN WILL I BE ABLE TO STOP FREAKIN OUT?!?!?