Well, well, well... Look who's back?! Been quite some time since I wrote in this blog of mine. You know, just 2 or 3 years... No biggie. So much has happened (of course) since the last time I wrote in this monster. And I have to say, I quite missed it. Exponentially. When we go through trying times, I believe we sometimes fail to remember the simple outlets that we have, not only to temporarily escape what is transpiring within our lives, but also to find a safe haven for our thoughts and feelings. (I plan to work harder at writing in this regularly now, just as I did so many years ago) Why is it that it has become harder to do so in recent years? Is it possible that I am truly that much busier? Or is it that I became so focused on other things, that I failed to continue a leisure activity that I not only enjoyed but kept me sane and gave me a sense of self and peace? Hmm. To be fair, I'm going to go with a little bit of both or maybe a mixture of the two, shall we say?
I find myself asking questions. A lot of them. They result in a LEVIATHAN, as they never end. At least it seems that way. Why do certain things happen, not only to myself, but to people in general? Why do people suffer? Why do they go through trying times, that sometimes leave them worse off or in a darker place than when they started? Is it really just a test..or a testament to the world in which we live? Why is it that those who deserve better settle for less? Why do we have tragedies like Trayvon Martin? Why do we have airplanes falling from the skies while locomotives collide into one another? Why are homosexuality and race still such detracting issues?I find myself asking questions like this way more than I used to. I doubt it's just because I'm older, but because I care about the world around me. It appears that the more you care, the more it hurts. One thing I absolutely cannot tolerate is seeing people suffer. And that's ALL I see now. It breaks my heart a little bit. I ask myself everyday what is it that I can do to help the situations around me. But in all honestly, without too many resources, not much. How frustrating?! At some point in time I WILL have the resources needed to truly put a dent in an issue or crisis that we will encounter in the future. Until that time, I have to keep hope alive, I guess..
God, I had no intentions on starting my first blog on such a somber note. But honestly, 'it be like that sometimes'. No? Moving on. I now reside in Florida where much of the bullshit happens. I'm definitely ready to change the scenery for that reason, along with the amount of racism and conservatism that is here. I'm not necessarily saying that I have to live in a Blue state, but I at least need a BLUE city.
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