If u only knew

I knew it was time for a new blog when i looked at the date of the most recent one. damn! it's been a minute, eh? Something has really been getting on my nerves as of late and i think it's time for me to get it off my chest. "If u only knew" means a lot to me, a lot more than just a name i put on myspace. It's symbolic, and it's becoming more true each day. Last week i felt like a taxi service to many people. and quite frankly, i really was without the getting paid part. I feel as though people really have been taking me for granted. After finally dropping my last "customers" off, i went home....in shame. It's my fault for letting it happen, but at the same time, it takes 2 to MAKE it happen. It people really respected me for who i am and what i will do for them, they should show it. But most people these days do not. i'm tired off it! Sick and tired. Fuck telling me i mean something, SHOW me. If u only knew what's going through my mind right now. If u only knew that if i didnt have as much patience as i do, u would see a side of me that I'M even scared of. Hmph. moving on. Another issue.... what's this i hear about me talking "white"? is that HUMANLY possible? Just because i talk like i have some sense and don't sound like i'm from the hood, don't get it twisted, my nig. if u only knew how fast i can turn off this bright light and switch on dark one before u can even utter "i'm sorry for being a bitch to u, shara". i'm tired of feeling disrespected. i'm tired of people judging me because of the way i look or the way i talk. haven't u ever heard of not judging a book by its cover. well it's time u took that advice. Believe it or not, my patience is running out. Let's try to remember the golden rule: treat others like u want to be treated. That's my motto in life. if u feel u cant adhere to this VERY SIMPLE rule, well, i'll guess u'll finally find out what u NEVER knew.