I'on Know

Confusion.... something I can never seem to completely get rid of.... Confusion... a game my mind likes to play with my body that just makes things worse. Confusion... It drives me in circles and even a little makes me indecisive at times. Fuck, man. All i want is to find what makes me happy. But what happens when I don't even know what that is? What if I can't find the answer myself? Don't get me wrong, ok? I'm definitely doing the things I need 2 be doing as far as school and work. But outside of that, I really have nothing... Nothing but frustration and confusion. I've been doing a lot of thinking about relationships lately. And, well, I still can't decide if I'm happy being single or not. Sometimes I feel like I'm so engulfed in school and work that I leave little to no time for me to do anything for myself. How can I meet someone or get to know someone if I don't make time for that? Hmmm.. Maybe this means i'm just not supposed to meet anyone right now. Maybe it means I'm thinking too hard on somethin' that should be minute right now. Or is it supposed to be minute? Shit, i'on know, man. I can't even make time for my friends these days... WTF??? This can't be good.... This can't be good at all. Not only am I flying solo but I dont even see the people I care about the most. My body is telling me that I should close myself off until I know that what's placed in front of me is right. But my brain is saying something completely and utterly different. It's telling me to do whatever the f*** I feel at the instance. Is that backwards or is that backwards?? WHERE IS MY MIND AT? If any of u find it, let me know. 'Cause right now, it's very much lost. Hmmm God, I hope I can get through this semester okay. Someone help me find my happiness and myself...... until next time.....