...... Peaceful

Yesterday was a busy day. First I went to work until about 2 o'clock. After that, I came home and got ready to go to Jefferson Barracks. For those of u not from STL and don't know what that is, it's a cemetery. I told Bobby I would go with him out there to visit his dad's grave. I figured that it would only be right for me to visit my grandfather while I'm out there..... So, we make it out there close to 5 and I went to see my grandfather, Poppie, first. That's the nickname that every single person that ever knew him called him. U know the nicknames that stick to some people so well that u tend to forget their real names? Yeah, that's what it was like. Anyway, back to the day. I stayed at his grave a little while longer until I decided to find Bobby at his father's grave. I saw him there, on one knee. He was crying. I could feel what he felt, up there on that grassy hill. We left not too long after, and headed to a BBQ that his boss was throwing at his house. Man, it seemed like we were there for a while, but when I looked at the time, it wasn't even 7 o'clock. Hmmm. On the ride back to house, I remember Bobby saying that he "wanted us to spend one whole day together, doing absolutely nothing before we went back to school". For a second. it seemed like a cool idea and the friend side of him talking to me! But on the other side, I'm thinking it's the boyfriend in him talking to me. At the end of the day, what is going to be the point of that? Just spending it together? But we're NoT together. I'm confused. Our relationship that we have is really confusing me. On one end of the spectrum, I love the fact that he loves ME so much. HOWever, it makes me wonder if we have REALLy had anytime apart. Does he still do the things he does for me because he just cares about me SO much, or because he's holding onto me to the point that I won't even THINK about seeing other people. Idk. But what i CAN say is that it yesterday was a very good day to spend together. Even though... well... on the ride bak i had something else on my mind..... (but that's anotha story, yeah?) Oh! Good news... i think. I called the gurl Sarah, who works at the Chase Park Plaza, and she said she "got the go-ahead to have me come in and fill out paper work. I'm guessing I got the job then, right? YEEeeesssss!!!! I swear, i hope i will rack up quite a bit so that by the end of the summer I can have a lil' somethin' somethin' towards a new car. Not only that, but at imo's i've been working my ass off so much i know that this week i know my check will have my pocket STACKED!!! I want to be back on that path i used to be on, which was taking care and supporting myself. Ah well. I'm not gonna fret. I don't want to spoil any of the positive things that have been happening to me lately. I'm on a winning streak, u know? Everything has been.....peaceful.