What's Wrong?

Lately I've just been in a daze and I don't know what's goin' on.... but then again, is that new? Thing is, all day I was hoping that I WOULD, in fact, go somewhere, unlike what happened last night. So much for that. When I first got off of work, Vickie asked me if I wanted to go to the Mono, or here, or there... The thought of just "getting out" was inticing and I said sure. After I get off of work, I take a nap for a little bit. When I wake up, I see everyone on the entire floor getting ready for various parties @ different people's houses. Mind you, I'm still thinking I'm goin' out with either Whitney or Vickie... or someone!!! So... around 9, I go down to Vickie's room and she's doing her roommate, Ashley's, hair. I sit there and we just make casual conversation. Finally, she says, "So... are you going to the party?... or...." I'm thinkin, wtf. What the hell is she even talking about. I know nothing about the party that she's apparently going to now. I respond, "I don't even know where you're goin." Then I exit the room inconspicuously, as if I wasn't upset. Thing is, people do this shyt all the time. I don't get it. What is UP?? What's wrong with me? I feel like I'm not wanted... at all. I feel so sad and empty inside. I don't even know what it is. What shall I do to fill this void? I really don't know. Nothing has been going my way lately. It's like..... everything has to be messed up when I'm involved. Otherwise, It works out fine. Maybe I'm overreacting. It's just that I promised myself that I would have a much better time than I did last night. Who knows. Maybe I'll get another random call from someone tonight asking me to do somethin. Yeah right. Maybe this means I don't need to go out @ all. I'm sick anyway, right? alright. I'm lyin' down now.