Emotions

'Member how a few days ago I was really feeling down? Well, I've cheered up a little bit since then. However, I still can't explain what came over me. Though I am in better spirits, my feelings due to the situation still remain. I wish I knew what brought this on. Maybe I miss a lot of my friends. The more I talk to them or about them, the more I think about them, especially as of late. What's so sad about it is that I've even made a lot more friends since this semester started, but somehow it seems to have made it worse for me. When I get to know more about the people I live with, I see things in them and aspects of their personality that are lacking which many of my boys from highschool had/have....... Man, I don't know. Emotions are a killer. Why am I so emotional lately? WHY?!!?! I guess it makes me human, right? Yah. I'm gotta get off this subject now. It's worrying my brain. Well, remember that guy Josh? Well, sent me a text which said, "hey What's up? I'm sorry I didn't call I went home for the weekend. I thought I would send you this text so you wouldn't forget about me. If you're tired of dorm food I would like to take you out to eat one night if it's okay with you... well?" So I sent bak a very simple "okay", not certain if I really wanted to hear what he had to say. he called me right afterwards and was like, "hey what's up? i'm not bothering you, am I? Oh, okay. Sorry I didn't call. I ended up going home this weekend." so we carried a convo for a bout an hour or so about absolutely nothing. I needed a conversation like that. I haven't had one that wasn't really deep in a while. I mean, I like ge'in deep, but I needed a break. He's a dork, thankfully. I noticed i don't get along with people who are very into themselves. If you can laugh at yourself, you'll probably be tolerated by more people, compared to those who are serious all the time. And he DID make me laugh! I was really surprised at how funny he was. But.... my predictions are that we'll end up being really good friends, just from the way our conversations go. However, I won't mind going out to eat and getting to know one another a little better. Considering we met @ a SLU party on the East Side, I think doing something else while talking would help as well. lol. I went out to Lindenwood last night. It was good seeing bobby. I'm glad that I can say he's one person I never get tired of. I've never told him this before but........ When I get of my car and we're walking toward each other from opposite directions, my eyes light up SO wide and a huge smile comes across my face as soon as I see him coming to me. I get so excited but I try to play it cool, i guess. So much for that! My secret's out now, huh? I guess it's another one of those Emotions...