NEXT!

Well, now. People are “stepping down” from their positions left and right. What is that about? A change is coming, and is here. Don’t know how long I’ll be sticking for it to finish, though.

Know what else is crazy? The amount of shit people talk about each other’s work ethic. I’ve never heard more people talking about how the other person doesn't do their work or are lazy more than I do now. “He doesn't do anything”. “She is SO lazy”. Who has time for that?! Stay in your lane. Worry ‘bout yourself…unless of course what they don’t do affects you. I feel like people like to talk negatively about others partly to make themselves feel better. You may have heard the saying “How people treat others is usually a direct reflection of how they feel about themselves”.

I believe there is some truth to that. That is why I refuse to be a participant in what is currently happening. Just wish I could fast forward the clock a little bit to the point where I am no longer experiencing this growing pain. And I digress.

Never mind. Let’s move on. I’m not feeling my best today, but still made it in to work.  I’m trying to suck it up. Unfortunately, the whole time I’m thinking “Just fuckin' shoot me now!!!”. Ugh. I just want to lay down, crawl into a tiny, little ball and not move. Ever. I mean EVER. At least no one can see how bad I feel, me being way back in the Goddamn corner. This just makes me more anxious for the end of the month. It wasn't mine intention to do this, but I have to take 7 days off before August 29^th, due to my vacation time getting ready to expire (which is so ridiculous). With that being said, I didn't realize I had so much time off that I needed to use and now don’t have a choice in how I do so. BUT, at the same time, I can’t wait to not have to sit in an office, at a desk, staring at a computer screen for 8-9 hours per day while having no one else to talk to other than myself. I’m not going to stress too much about it, though. I have a feeling change will be coming my way soon, just not as soon as I want it to.

I just hope that when it comes time for it, I can actually accept it and make the best decisions moving forward. This Florida move was not the best, but I was ready to take a chance. I don’t necessarily regret it, but I DO wish that I had more cushion and a backup plan. I guess this is just a lesson well learned: Don’t go for the first opportunity that comes your way. Make sure that it’s a least worth it and is providing a gateway towards they direction you want to go. NOT the opposite. NEXT!