It's so hard getting up at 8:00 in the morning. It's so hard going to classes that I didn't even want to take in the first place. It's so hard to find the energy to stand up for myself sometimes. But by far the hardest thing for me right now is having to hold onto a relationship that consists of more talking on the phone than being able to do things with each other. I hate how unless I drive out there I can never see him. Yes, our circumstances are somewhat dire, and this limits our options extremely. But sometimes it's just so hard to leave him there after cuddling all night. It's hard keeping the clothes I've had on after being with him all night and smelling his scent on them. And once smelling them, all I have to do is close my eyes and I can imagine him sleeping soundly. I can almost feel his lips on mine. It's sometimes hard listening to the radio and hearing a song come on that reminds me of him. Or is it? Or is it just that love keeps people attached to one another? I know that this is the case for me now. He stays on my mind 24/7. I'm fallin, hard and fast. But I know he is, too. And that makes what I think is SO hard much easier to handle, knowing that someone feels the same way for me. This is something I've never felt for anyone else before. But it feels oh so good.
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