dope d dope d dope dope girl fresh! How's everybody doin'? I haven't been feelin' as frisky as i normally do. why? well, finals are next week and i'm already feeling the pressure. If i don't do well on both my japanese and spanish final, i'm probably gonna have C's in both classes. I NEED to get at least a B+ or an A on both of them to do well in the class. I really don't know what it is about this semester, but it's been the hardest semester I have ever had before... EVER!!! The more I think about school, policies, and classes, the more frustrated i get. The cost to attend is ridiculous, all the rules are not fair nor reasonable, and many teachers just think they know everything when they don't. No one knows EVERYTHING. But i do know this for sure... I want to graduate in Spring of '08. fuck the bullshit. I want to move out of St. Louis. I have so many plans for the future that do not involve this place. Now, don't get me wrong. I luv my city, even though we have a lot of shit goin on here that just aint right, but..... this isn't a place that I can get old in. I need to be in some warm weather. Everytime this time of year comes around, I can't even focus. I can't think straight. I can't......function... and I HATE that feeling. (sigh) I really hope my schedule for next year will help me out. One, I'm not gonna take 18 hours. Two, I know that the job I have is something that I can keep if I want and dispose of if I feel necessary. Three, I will (hopefully) have made enough money over Christmas break that I won't have to work so hard in the first couple months of the new year. And least that's the plan. Over the next 24 days, I'll be able to make a coll $1500. That's if I budgeted out everything right and counted up all my expenses correctly. Man, that money will be SO nice. I can pay my car payments with ease for a minute, buy myself somethin' nice, put some money in the bank, pay my next 2 phone bills, get new tires on the whip as well as some darker tint...Yay YEAH!!!!! I just hope everything works out like i need it to.
Moving on. I have a lot to write here... mainly 'cause it's been a minute since the last time i wrote, so bear with me. Christmas. It's comin' up in two weeks from this past Monday. CRAZINESS!!! As much as i luv this gift-giving season, I've come to the realization that some people just ain't gettin' shit this year. Imma keep it real. I understand that family is supposed to be something that's close-knit and strong. But quite frankly, mine is not. Many people only think of themselves. SO.... this automatically creates a problem with my relationship with these certain individuals. It's detrimental to a family being close when someone doesn't care about others. Ah well. I know whose gettin somethin' so fuck watcha heard. Aunt jeanie and gettin' nothin.....aunt brenda ain't gettin' nothin. I'm sorry. Keep that sweater u got at the thrift store for $2 dollars, ok? Im not saying u have to spend an obscene amount of money, but i'm sure u all know that u can tell whether or not thought has been put into something, including a gift. I'm sorry, but i'd rather u give me nothin than something just 'cause u know it's christmas. That defeats the purpose, don't u think? Well, anyway, finals are next week and i gotta get my mind right. I plan to do have of my take-home final tomorrow afternoon with my group and the rest of it when we have time between finals. Then, we have to present it on Thursday. God, i'm nervous. I really want to finish this semester as strong as possible. Wish me luck, u guys......
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