SAAAAAVE MEEEEE

It seems like no matter how far i advance into this summer, I can't stop thinking about the past, or at least the past 6 months. It's so freakin' hard. I miss everything about my life during that period of time.Thoughts about what I used to do is completely polluting my brain. If only this train wreck would stop. I'm so stressed out, worrying about finding a second job, finding a place to live, AND finding someone to live with.(Oh yea. that's a whole 'nother dilemma in itself) So the gurl i'm SUPPOSED to live with decided to live w/ someone else and didn't bother to tell me. Furthermore, i found out from the person she's moving in with. GREAT. Why is all of this happening to me right now? FUUUUCK. This is the last thing I need. Between the two night classes and working 30+ hours a week, I seriously don't need any more added stress. It's even gotten to the point that I doubt I will find that one someone will "complete" me. Whatever the fuck that means..... BUt seriously, what if i missed or screwed up my chance for real happiness? What if it's already passed me? What if I can never find someone who can really be my "better half"? Damn. And I thought having general conversations with old friends I haven't seen in 6 months would be healthy. eh. (breathes a sigh) Maybe I'm too hard on myself. Maybe I'm just still having a hard timme getting back in the groove of the U.S. Shit. Wtf am i talking about? I haven't been this confused in a while. I've gotta be overreacting. You know what? After writing all of that I'm coming to the confusion that I may just be a little lonely. Now i'm used to being having company all the time. Having that taken away suddenly has taken its toll on me. Hmph. But what can I do? Other than staying focused on my school work and finding another job, there's really nothing else to occupy my time. jfdka;ljdka;jaddf. I'm gonna break this keyboard. SOMEBODY HELP ME.