okay. wednesday morning. it's first hour. i am chillin out. i am very..... lost. i'm trying so hard to start my homework but i can't get ne thing done!!! Like.... i've been in here for the last hour and haven't gotten anything done. idk. what is wrong with me. I've got homework to do. I've acknowledged that fact. And all i can do is sit there and stare at the stuff. I don't know what's wrong with me. I said to myself that during 2nd semester, i would keep up with my work, actually do it every night, finish it, understand it, go in every chance i got if i needed help in anything, keep up with everything i'm doing outside of school, work more at work, work out before soccer season, and be ready when spring comes around. i'm trying so hard to keep my head above water but i'm going nowhere. idk what to do. I just need to keep my mouth quiet (not out of the norm) but make sure that i don't give off bad karma if i sit by myself in class. i need to not worry about wat other people think of me. ( i've actually come to terms with this and understand the problem) I need 2 let myself be myself. i need to buy some more CDs. i need to put money aside for that playstation 2 i've been wanting forever. i need to leave time for myself to meditate. i need to realize that i am a 2nd semester senior and this is not the time to play around and worry about childish crap. but ne way, the bell just rung so if ne thing special happens, ill letcha know.
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